"My reader, I hope, I like a friend who comes to visit, learns to mound flour on the thick marble counter and work in the egg, a friend who wakes to the four calls of the cuckoo in the linden and walks down the terrace paths singing to the grapes; who picks jars of plums, drives with me to hill towns of round towers and spilling geraniums, who wants to see the olives the first day they are olives. A guest on holiday is intent on pleasure."
-Under the Tuscan Sun

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

change

I just found this in my archives. I wrote it last year sometime but never posted it. Why? Don't ask me! Reading it a year later, I'm not even sure how to react to it, but it's definitely something to think about...


Change: It's something that has been philosophized, discussed, and expected for all of time, but where is it? True, change is seen in all living things- a baby grows up to be an adult, and winter turns into spring, but that adult makes another baby who, in turn, grows up, and spring eventually turns back into winter again. It's all a process- the process of life that has been created by an all-powerful, all-knowing God. Even though we are always changing, he is unchanging. But do we change as much as we think? In my life, I have realized that even though 20 years have passed and I am now in college, not much has changed from the time I was in middle school. I still am mocked by my friends for being "that girl", I still have a passion for beauty, love, and purity, and I still complain about being single. Some of the things I have the ability to change-- even though I sometimes complain about it, I chose to be single. But at the same time, I have learned that no matter who my friends are or how I act around them, I will be known as "that girl"; it's a fact of life that I have gladly learned to accept. Some would say that is a lie-- "you can change anything if you set your mind to it". Well, the fact is this: I have new friends now, I am in a new place, surrounded by people who never knew me before last year. I am more mature, and more responsible, and wiser; despite these differences, I still experience times and emotions so very similar to those i had all through elementary, middle, and high school. The point I am trying to make is that maybe we are created more in the image of God than we realize-unchanging. Mind you, we are not divine and God is the only being unaffected by change; but if you take the time to look back through history you will find that, despite what some may think, the human race has changed little since the fall. We never seem to learn from our mistakes! For example, compare ancient Rome to modern America. The similarities are almost frightening. True, they didn't have the modern conveniences that we are so blessed to have today but they sure did know how to have a good time; entertainment was key in the their society. Blood, gore, romance, drinking, sex... sound familiar? And even now, despite the fact that our cultures are very similar in the aspects of self-absorption, entertainment, and laziness, Rome, the most powerful empire of the world at the time, fell. Collapsed. Dissolved. Died. They were not invincible... even though so many lived their lives with the belief that they were. I have always wondered why people never learn
from their mistakes. You would think that after multiple heartbreaks, a girl wouldn't keep running to the same kind of man who has hurt her so many times before. Wouldn't you also think that after centuries of empires rising and falling, dictators killing and being killed, we would have figured out by now how to have a peaceful and safe government and society? The answer is no! in the year 2009, we still cease to learn from our mistakes. Change is inevitable, we now have the first black president, but is he really what our country needs? It's a circle of events, power struggles, and wars that never seam to solve anything at all.
Change is something all people wait for and actually expect in life, but does anyone ever really find it?

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

got those pre-departure blues

Hey everyone! In 6 short days, I will be on my way to the beautiful country of Italia! I cannot wait to get over there, try the food, stand in awe of art, learn the language (yeah, right), and check out those infamous Italian men ;) I wish all of you could accompany me over there, but for now, skype will have to suffice.

Welcome to my online journal! I will be recording my inmost personal and embarrassing thoughts here; what happens in the blog stays in the blog. Got that? My abroad status is this: currently avoiding orders from my mom to pack, laying in my bed, and making this blog. As you can see, Augusta is very exciting. Wish you were here. I can't wait to post something of importance here! Thanks for taking interest in my life, my dear friends. I love each one of you very much and will be thinking of you constantly over the next 3 months.

Until next time, Arivederci!